Secret police - Vocaloid

無駄だぞ! オマエは見張られてる どこへ逃げようとも
国家の転覆 企む輩を 決して 我らは 逃しはしない
オマエの すべての 行動パターン 把握している 何もかもをな!

オマエが のうのうと 暮らしてる間に 協力者は 増えてる
オマエの 周りの すべての者たち 例えば隣人、同僚
さらには 恋人、家族までもが オマエを 監視してる

我ら 秘密警察 政府直属 国家保安部なのだ!
秘密警察 闇に紛れる スパイ活動 取り締まり

朝から 晩まで オマエを 監視する(みる)

オマエを 自白に 追い込むため あらゆる手段使う
繰り返される 拷問 或いは 静脈注射の薬物
或いは オマエの 大事な者を 人質 容赦はしない!

だから 秘密警察 政府直属 国家保安部なのだ!
秘密警察 思想弾圧 不満分子を 取調べ

来る日も 来る日も オマエを 調査する(みる)

秘密警察 政府直属 国家保安部なのだ!
秘密警察 闇に紛れる スパイ活動 取り締まり

朝から 晩まで オマエを 監視する(みる)

Secret Police
- Vocaloid

It's be a while...

All I can say is that I'm tired.

It's been a very busy week. Only about to get worse the next week. Usually I get excited about little things, but considering how I've had a lack of updates for the last few days, just shows my lack of motivation to do anything. Enjoyment of life is how you see things. I'm pretty sure people hate doing menial jobs, but if they believe that by working hard, they're achieving something out of life, it means there's a slight happiness to it. Personally, doing something you want to in life that makes you happy, doesn't mean you won't struggle. Now I feel like I've gone off tangent. Personally, I didn't come here to do something that will make me happy. Fuck, if I wanted to be happy, I'll be going to university, spending time with my friends, pole dancing and working part time. Personally, that will make me happy. Golf is more than a struggle. It's always a mixed emotion for me. People assume it makes me happy, but to be frank... it stresses me out. I feel like a failure most of the time and I feel like I'm struggling to do something that I feel I have no right to do or to achieve. Maybe it's because I'm so tired that I'm getting overly emotional about everything right now. Maybe the stress is building up. Sometimes I want to drop everything, but I can't. I'm scared about everything. I'm scared I'll disappoint my family by being so weak for letting things get to me.

I've always been the type that wanted to get interactive and go full on with everything I do. Unfortunately, it's starting to bog me down. Because I hate how things are run, my personality wants to change it. I've been a busy who always wanted to make a difference. However... I still haven't found that voice yet. I always yield to everyone else who is more dominant or well spoken. I just sit back and sulk. In a way, I feel like such a pathetic individual. I wish I could be as assertive as most. People always tell me you can, but it's different when you try. Argh... I hate my personality on many different levels. I'm so displeased about my situation, but I don't even attempt to make a difference or change it.

This entry doesn't even make any sense...

私は疲れた...

No procrastination wtf?

With the rate I'm going tonight, I might as well get my homework for Thursday knocked out of the way. But it's only Tuesday night. The homework for tomorrow is so minimal that I can finish it in an hour.

What is wrong with me? I even did my lab work done tonight. I wish I could always be like this. Maybe I'd have good time management then ><

Maybe I should bake if I get EVERYTHING done in 2 hours =3

Truffle dessert brownies

b1

Unfortunately, I was stupid and I baked it for too long. Ended up burnt. I should've just taken it straightaway, but thinking it was undercooked, I kept it in a little too long.

However... it was still a success. It was moist and dense. Just ended up cutting off the top, sides and bottom. Covered it in icing sugar and VOILA!

b2

Unfortunately that's all that's left of it :)

Luckily, I'll make it better for next week's qualifier. Two batches should be enough for one day =) I really can't wait till P and I cup. It'll be a bake fest <3

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Banana bread recipe

Banana Bread recipe

Was a little bit worried due to the lack of baking powder. However, I decided to still give it a go.

bb1

Turned the temperature down, and it came out quite nice. The texture was good and had just enough moisture so it wasn't dry.

bb2

Seemed like a success considering I baked it on Saturday and it's almost finished today. I think I'm getting a little better =)

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Yowamushi Mont Blanc/Coward Mont Blanc - GUMI

弱虫モンブラン
----------

ありったけの想いは これだけの言葉に
愛したけど重いわ それだけのことなの?

愛したのは誰だっけ? アレほどの時間が
消えて、見えなくなった まだ触れてるハズなのに

忘れてしまえば 消える反照

本当だって良いと 思えないの
アタシはまだ弱い虫
コントラクト会議
アタシはまた キミの中に堕ちていくの


ありったけの想いは これだけの言葉に
愛したけど重いわ それだけのことなの?

愛したのは誰だっけ? アレほどの時間が
消えて、見えなくなった まだ触れてるハズなのに

麻酔をかけてよ 火照る内声

本当だって良いよ 戻れないの
アタシはまた怖くなる
モンブランは甘味
裸足のまま その甘さに溺れたいの


想天キミがいる 淘汰消えていく
もうアタシは キミに伝えられない。

「君が死ねばいいよ 今すぐに」


本当だって良いと 思えないの
アタシはまだ弱い虫
コントラクト会議
アタシはまた キミの中に堕ちていく

本当だって良いと 思いながら
「嘘であって」と願うのは
弾き堕した結果
アタシがまだ 弱虫モンブランだったから


君が入ってる 繰り返し果てる
それに応えよと アタシは喘ぐの

Yowamushi Mont Blanc/Coward Mont Blanc
- GUMI

Personal traits....

I learned a very important lesson tonight. It's a criticism, but I took it to heart.

Apparently I'm a very controlling and domineering individual. According to my roommate, apparently I'll never find a husband unless it's someone who's wimpy or just someone who's willing to take everything.

I never realised this. My mum has this character trait and I always believed I was more like my dad than I was like my mum. I suppose that isn't so much the case nowadays.

I always feel like I need to assert my position and power because of being a woman. I'm in a class full of guys. Ratio of 1:47. I feel like I need to hold myself up to be considered an equal.

What I didn't get, was that no matter how much I do this, it's never going to happen.

1) I'm in America. Guys will never really respect you as a woman. They'll never really see eye to eye, nor respect you as an equal.
2) I'm too young. 21, I still have a lot to learn.

I won't dismiss what my room mate said to me. Half of it is probably true. I just want to be confident and strong. However... I need to learn to say things in a better manner. I need to learn to sugar coat things. I've always been a blunt person, but I don't think that actually gets me anywhere.

As they say... you catch more bees with honey.

I'm still worried though. I wonder constantly if I let these guys push me around without me really realising. I mean, I'm a bit of a push over. I let people tread all over me. I've really been trying in terms of smiling, trying to say less and just talk less. I need to keep to myself a lot more, but it's hard. I hate how they all expect us to be meek and docile in our little white gloves. But I've grown up rolling around and beating up boys my age. I've been equal to the people around me.

I feel like I'm at a different level here.

As bad as it sounds... I think I should start some kind of strategic planning and think of this as a game.

I know I'm going to struggle in life. But I know it in my heart that it will make me a stronger person. I won't to make a difference in the world. I really do. I want to change something. I don't want to go through life without accomplishing anything nor being mediocre. I want to be something.

In that respect, I'm willing to sacrifice what needs to be sacrificed.

FML

Spent all night working on committee stuff that isn't due for another 1-2 weeks. It kept me busy for a good 3-4 hours. Luckily 80% is finished. Only need to add a few more cities, check for spelling and it's all complete. Will need to make changes on the Monday/Tuesday in 2 weeks with more letters coming in and etc. Just nice to get it out of the way I suppose. Won't need to think about it. I got it done more or less because I didn't want my chairman bugging me about it. Since it's done, it'll be counter productive to make me change again, so I should be good. Hopefully he'll decide to trust me after this one. You'd think with all the time we've worked on projects together... you would think he would trust me with my abilities... clearly not :/

It was a Friday night... and I'm stuck at home working on stuff. man I have no life lol... FML

fc2 blog app.

God I love this new app <3 I can do this when I'm outside now. love smart phones <333

1st qualifier

Okay, I played like absolute bull crap today. I'm sick of giving excuses so from here on out, I'm going to get out of my funk and work on my game. Haven't properly played since November I think. Haven't played at all for close to 2 months and practice is little to non existent. therefore... I must practice. My aim is p cup this semester. I will change this in 2 weeks. I was hitting them well last week, however the lack of practice and my non existent chipping is pulling me down. I couldn't hit my balls well cause of how self conscious I felt. I didn't feel prepared and had already screwed up. From tomorrow, I will change that. No more fucking excuses!! I need to have better stabilization and hip rotation. Need to stop moving my head. I'm aiming to shoot 41 or less next qualifier. I'm determined.

I'm so tired.

2nd Day of Qualifiers. Busy doing 1st tee, 9th green for Mark. Even though I'm not Co-chairman, I certainly feel like I'm doing that job. I always keep the chairman up to date, make sure he's on task, remind him everything and get everything that needs to be done DONE. Tomorrow's the last qualifier and I'm playing. Frankly, I'm not in any mood to play at all. I'm really physically and mentally fatigue. Right now, I should be studying, but I'm considering just throwing everything and going to sleep. I'm not waking up earlier because I am so exhausted. I need the extra sleep, especially for tomorrow.

I feel uneasy about my golf right now due to the lack of practice sessions since the last. It's been like a week since I last properly hit. Haven't even tried course management because of my ride and etc. Right now, I'm just at an uneasy position. I can't freely do whatever I can and want.

I'm really going to try hard and get my practice and get all my lessons finished by end of February/early March. I am planning to get my license between mid Feb to late Feb. I'm sick of dilly dallying. I'm sick of relying on people. I need to stop making these excuses because really... I've had enough.

Okay, sleep sounds good right about now.

Realisation about life...

You know... it's always been told and I felt like it really didn't sink in until tonight.

A lot of people have told me that I have no respect for myself. I never really understood this until now. I didn't realise my behavior caused that much of a bad reputation amongst my peers.

I'm looking back and reflecting what I have done. I suppose I reap what I sow in terms of interactions with people. There's so many pairs of eyes watching, that I really need to becareful of how I do things. I didn't realise that talking to so many guys and just being overly friendly has led to people misunderstanding my intentions completely.

I come off as a person who likes to 'socialise', only because I force myself. I worry constantly that I'm not interacting enough. I suppose in that respect, I lose the 'mysterious' and 'aloof' aspect of one's characteristics. The irony behind all this is, no one really knows what I'm really like. People think they've all got me figured out, but most of the time, I'm so conscious about my surroundings that I lose track of myself.

Anyways, part of my NY resolutions was to be more confident. In that respect, I need to gain confidence in myself and rely less on people. Do what needs to be done, and don't go beyond to impress these boys. What do I have to gain from these guys? What do I have to prove?

Nothing.

That's what.

I need to learn to respect myself more, in order for other people to respect me. As seeds of greatness taught us, how can you expect other people to love you when you don't love yourself?

Thus... I shall focus on my studies and golf. I will not socialise beyond the extent that needs to be done. If I get invited, I shall kindly decline. I'll slowly draw myself away from these people and try to keep to myself. I need to contain myself and just try and gather the pieces that I have broken along the way.

It's hard to change first impressions and reputations... but I can redeem myself to the point that I'm happy with myself.

Because clearly... I'm really not happy with myself right now. Hearing about these things of what people think of me, I don't care to the point that I do care at the same time. Even with the guy I like... I've given him too much leverage.

Hell, I've given everyone too much leverage for everything. I've let people stomp all over me. From now on, that will change. I'm trying to change myself. This should be one of the things I aim to do right now.

I will strive to be better than what I am. I will change. I will no longer let people have control over me. I will not let them trample on me and have leverage over me. I will be better than what I am now.

To do list when I come home.

I'm not procrastinating... *cough cough*

I've got a lot of things to do, so I'm here typing a useless piece of information so I don't have to do it instead orz

Anyways... the things to do when I come back to Sydney:-

- Play in Mixed Foursomes Championships
- Go to Watsons Bay and eat fish and chips
- Visit my 'grandparents'/long time family friends
- See all my friends (cosplay, school & general good friends)
- Attend a con (maybe)
- Purikura
- KARAOKE!!!
- Yaoi night??
- Work with parents/help them out
- Play/practice 5 times a week
- Spend my Sunday's with mum and dad
- Go to Victoria tea rooms
- Go to Jamie Oliver's restaurant in Martin Place
- Do some touristy stuff
- Hopefully play a few rounds of golf with my instructor and Corie back home
- Spend time with Anthony
- Extreme pole + classes
- Go to Wollongong or Blue Mountains with family
- Eat all of mum's cooking
- Go into as many NSW comps as possible
- Check out Melbourne (maybe)

I really want to live and just enjoy my time in Sydney before I head back for another 14 months. Wish I could drop down to Melbourne a bit as well. I might consider that. I'll talk to Jen and see how she thinks about it as well, considering neither of us has visited Melbourne yet. If things work out, it'll be her, me and Laurence. I'll just ditch them so they can spend a night together at a romantic hotel while I see some friends in Melbourne and have my fun there fufufufu ~

Prisoner of Love - Utada Hikaru

I'm a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
I'm just a prisoner of love
A prisoner of love

平気な顔で嘘をついて
笑って 嫌気がさして
楽ばかりしようとしていた

ないものねだりブルース
皆安らぎを求めている
満ち足りてるのに奪い合う
愛の影を追っている

退屈な毎日が急に輝きだした
あなたが現れたあの日から
孤独でも辛くても平気だと思えた
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
I'm a prisoner of love

病める時も健やかなる時も
嵐の日も晴れの日も共に歩もう

I'm gonna tell you the truth
人知れず辛い道を選ぶ
私を応援してくれる
あなただけを友と呼ぶ

強がりや欲張りが無意味になりました
あなたに愛されたあの日から
自由でもヨユウでも一人じゃ虚しいわ
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Oh もう少しだよ
Don't you give up
Oh 見捨てない 絶対に

残酷な現実が二人を引き裂けば
より一層強く惹かれ合う
いくらでもいくらでも頑張れる気がした
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

ありふれた日常が急に輝きだした
心を奪われたあの日から
孤独でも辛くても平気だと思えた
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

I'm a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
I'm just a prisoner of love
I'm a prisoner of love

Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
一人にさせない

Prisoner of Love
- Utada Hikaru

BRAVE 10

BKJSDBEFJKBSDFJKBSLKLKHNBFJKBNSAKNE!!!!!

BRAVE 10 IS NOW AN ANIME!!! KAuhsdkjasbefjkabsekfjbwea

Oh Shimotsuki Kairi, you must be so proud TwT

brave 10

I felt a little hesitant by seeing some screenshots, but from the OP, I'm getting more and more hopeful. With the basara style animation, I'm feeling a little more comfortable. They also seem to try and retain the original artstyle to some existent. Unfortunately, nothing you can do with the overly shoujo style of Izumo... but hopefully the plot will remain the same. Same with the character personality traits. Love the colour choice of Izumo's clothes. Now I'm even more pumped to try cos Izumo and Sasuke (the only version I could possibly pull off orz).

Now I'm going to follow this religiously fufufufu ~
(cause knowing me... I'm failed at following anything nowadays "OTL)

Digital Love - Daft Punk

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?

Digital Love
- Daft Punk

Bee sting

So I stupidly got stung by a bee while practicing at the range. It's currently Day 3 and it's still swollen and itchy as hell. I wish I had some anti-histamine with me. It's driving me insane. Plus, I wanted to practice today but the weather is giving me some uncertainties on whether it'll rain or not. Seriously, I can't tell if it's getting worse or better this sting.

sting

It's been more than 4 hours since this photo, it's gotten redder. Temperature rising and the itch factor increasing.

/zetsuboushita
/needsbendadrylortelfastNEEDANTIHISTAMINES!!!

Oyayubi No Tsukaikata - Aiko

部屋の明かりは照らしてて

この泣いた顔も照らしてて

赤くなった頬の所

光る醜いあたしの水

余裕を見せた目の下は

熱を持った親指は

それはそれは上手にこの涙をふきとった


逢えなくなってから15日経ちました

穴あいた体と妄想があたしを食べた


欲ばったんじゃないのに

わがまましなかったのに

ほしかったんじゃない 愛したかったのに

ごめんなさい 忘れられない

ごめんなさい


思いつきの足どりは

癖のある方へ進む

たどりついたその場所に

光る醜いあたしの水

下唇噛んでても 強く指丸めてみても

手が触れたらたちくらむ

あなたへの満タンなメーター


逢えなくなったから今やっと知りました

隣にいる事がこの上ない幸せだった


慰めをいたわりを身がまえしたあたしに

どうか御褒美を「そんなんじゃない」

ごめんなさい うまく言えない

ごめんなさい


本当のあたしはせつなさのかたまり

あなたへの想いは強くいられる印だった


欲ばったんじゃないのに

わがまましなかったのに

ほしかったんじゃない 愛したかったのに

ごめんなさい 忘れられない ごめんなさい

ごめんなさい うまく言えない ごめんなさい

Oyayubi No Tsukaikata
- Aiko

There's only one thing we can do.

There's only one thing we can do. We must kill the batman.

God, I need to stop making stupid references all the time lol.

All weekend I've spent thinking about the same thing over and over again.

Frankly, I have more to lose than to gain. I've invested way too many emotions into this over the last couple of weeks. Really, is it worth it? Not really. It's counter productive and I know it'll never end well. It never does. Out of the number of interactions I've had with the opposite gender... only 2 has come around. I know I need to change that, but I'm afraid to lose what I have already. Even then, it took many many years to recover the relationship we had before going out.

However... the one thing that upsets me is the possibility that the person might be with someone else. I know they don't have anyone... I think. But knowing that there's someone else... what will I do? I'm so use to being the one breaking up first that I don't know where my feelings end up anymore. My first proper relationship ended up being disastrous. My feelings being dormant for a good 4 years after it. I suppose I've never really felt rejection in the way of me feeling so strongly for someone else. One guy was a complete fucking douche bag, so he doesn't count. I was idiotic and just plain frustrating to say the least.

I suppose it's better to just bury the feelings I have. It's probably better for the both of us. I can forget that I've ever had those feelings. We'll continue the way its always been. Eventually it'll die out. We'll both go onto different paths. He'll end up getting married in a couple of years, while I'll continue to tread through life the way I have always done before.

One thing that constantly comes up... will I ever regret it? I've had a few regrets in my life. I suppose if there gets to a point where I feel like we're drifting away, I might say my peace. Better than living with the what ifs in life. I know we'll both just laugh about it and move on. Just another memory in our lives. That's why I like him so much. He's so optimistic, earnest and so full of life. He see's the positives, even while accepting that the world isn't perfect. I admire him so much. At the same time, I dislike some of his characteristics. I suppose being blind to everything around you isn't a good idea. I remember what it was like previously. I'd only see the positives, then the negatives would morph into something awful as it manifested itself into a ball of negative energy.

I suppose all I can do is go on the same. Try to ignore these feelings. Make peace with myself slowly. See life the way it is suppose to be seen.

Te tsukazu no sekai - Tsubakiya Shijuusou

その気配が感ぜられた 四六時中を思い出しては
空の色さえ変えた 心の変わり様に呆れた

二人にだけ聞こえるよな 囁きを絶えず繰り返して
誰の目にも見えない 手つかずの場所へ迷い込んだ

次の迎えを待つのは 野暮だと心得ていた
いずれにせよ あなた以外に望みは無いから

構わずに 構わずに 話を続けてよ

身に覚えが無いでしょうけど 知らぬ間にいくつも傷ついた
人づての喜びに 蓋をする私を見届けて

また拾い物 気休めの切れ端を
少しずつ 千切ってしのいだ

まだ見ぬ幸せなど 野暮だと心得ていた
どちらにせよ あなた以外に

次の迎えを待つのは 野暮だと心得ていた
いずれにせよ あなた以外に望みは無いから

構わずに 構わずに 話を聞かせてよ

誰もいない場所へ
私を連れ出して


手つかずの世界
- 椿屋四重奏

Interstella 5555

I love this animation so much <3 Been meaning to watch it, so I finally did that now.

interstella 5555

Always loved the Discovery album the most out of Daft Punk's discography.
Plus, it was collaborated with Toei Animation.

Unfortunately, it was just so sad. Especially with Shep. I really wanted him to at least kiss Stella... life is unfair I suppose.

In memory, you can have some Ailee and Anita instead ~

interstella cosplay


These girls are amazing. They cosplay the most awesome characters and series. Both great cosplayers as well as seamstresses. I seriously admire them a lot <3

Seriously, I love the whole discovery album more now. I've always ben pretty selective, but this animated musical just opened my ears. Now I'm forever going to be sad listening to "Something About Us". /foreverangst

Shadow of love.

誓いの指輪
二人の赤い糸
今は見えない
約束もないけど

繋いだ手を離さないで
真実なら 悲しいだけ
このまま

* Trust in me
たとえほどけても
記憶はきずなを消せない
Will you trust in me
指先でたどる星 見えるでしょう

目をそらさずに
初めて伝えよう
瞳に映る
あなたが その人

この危うげな世界さえ
越えてゆけると 信じるだけ
あなたと

Trust in me
別々の空に
訪れる夜明けの中で
Will you trust in me
夢の中 何度でも
逢えるでしょう


Am I a bad person if I'm with one person, but I'm talking to another person? I always thought it was bad to talk to your exes. I've always disliked that, but recently... I can't back that up.

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Circles - Birds of Tokyo

I’m being followed by my shadow
He’s been creeping around
Asking where I’ve been

He keeps tapping on my shoulder
Telling me it’s over
So where do I begin?

These dark days are getting harder
I feel I’m treading water
So will I sink or swim

Roll on, push a little further
I keep saying is this worth it
Or should I just give in

I don’t know

I don’t know which way I’m supposed to spin
In this circle
And I won’t waste my time on your concern
‘Til it’s over

I look back on a distant border
I fear I’m getting older
There’s so much that I missed

Walk on following a fate line
See if I can define
Where I came undone

I don’t know which way I’m supposed to spin
In this circle
And I won’t waste my time on your concern
‘Til it’s over

And I will wait my turn
My time will come
This ain’t over

And I can’t wait no more
No sweet return
This is over
So it is
(No sweet return)
So it is
(No sweet return)
So it is
(No sweet return)
So it is
(No sweet return)
This is over


Circles - Birds of Tokyo

Baking again.

Ended up wanting to try this new recipe I found.

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Unfortunately, it didn't turn out as well as I'd liked it to have. Came out a little dry, need to work on the oven temperature. It wasn't as sweet, mainly due to less sugar and bananas not being ripe enough.

This was the recipe I used:

http://janetishungry.blogspot.com/2007/06/banana-and-raspberry-muffins.html

Next time I'll make them as muffins, maybe add another half cup and wait till the bananas are fully riped. It's very healthy though, which is great. I don't like it when it's too sweet, but it's not up to me I suppose =/ Hard to please the people around me especially since they LOVE sweet stuff orz

Ganbarremasu ~

Always procrastinating...

Here's me procrastinating and making a back cover collage art for my school folder.

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All the artwork is by Boneface. I was trying to be very deep with my words. But from the looks of it, it just makes me look morbid.

It's ironic. I was originally going to write dickie bird for Robin's art... but then thought that was more appropriate.

I really like boneface's art. It speaks louder than words.

Anyways... better stop procrastinating and start working on my homework for tomorrow.

Anyways... check him out ~

http://www.boneface.co.uk/about/

So... I decided to try making cookies from scratch using this recipe.

http://www.verybestbaking.com/recipes/18476/Original-NESTL%C3%89-TOLL-HOUSE-Chocolate-Chip-Cookies/detail.aspx

Unfortunately... I didn't want to make 60 cookies... so I ended up cutting down the ratio of the ingredients. Little did I know how badly it would turn out.

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Looking pretty good at this point.

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I thought okay...

Then it was this.

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I managed to create a hybrid. A cookie that was soft and moist in the center like cake. This is such ultimate failure I don't even know how to process how badly I did...

This is a huge blow to my ego/ability to bake.

I suppose I should wait till the weekend before I decide to bake anything anymore... *sigh* Or at least get the ratio right!!! I think it was too much baking soda that did it T^T

Only took 3 years.

Finally found the song names of the hetalia PVs I were obsessed over in 2009.

Fat Na Kare - GO!GO!7188
Oyayubi no Tsukaikata - AIKO
Tetsukaze no Sekai - Tsubakiya Shijuusou

I can finally rest in peace ~

Started baking again.

It's been like 3-4 years since I last baked.

It's nothing much, but need to start somewhere, right?

cookie 1

This batch turned out nicer than the first one. Lower temp and better positioning. Nice and crunchy at the edges, while soft and moist in the center. Used Betty Crocker mix. Going to try the nestle cookie recipe next time. I want to try making it from scratch. Along with mint choc chip cookies. Since I need to be frugal with my spending, it'll be one baking plans each weekend. Need to save money right now.

Doesn't help however... as Valentines Day is creeping up. I use to have a tradition back in school, where I made homemade chocolates and desserts for all my friends. Even made honmei choco at one point for the guy I liked. However, I want to get back into making giri chocolates for my friends at college.

That's the plan anyways...

Money goes like that!

Oh boy... spent a little bit TOO much this week. Been eating out quite a bit. Also went food shopping twice and little things in between. Plus I paid for rent and driving lessons, so somehow it's already over a thousand.

Which means one thing... I shall be spending $20 shopping per week and eating out once to none per week. I need to be a lot more frugal with my spending. With that in mind, I have $3000. I need another 2 grand before I can even begin looking for a car. Luckily, I have to wait till March, so by then, I'll hopefully have scraped up that money. Still need to pay for my deposit at this place. My deposit from the other place should arrive sometime soon. When that does, it'll be really helpful right about now.

Ahhh... Just need to be more frugal. Means I'll have to live without furniture for a little while longer until my car problems are dealt with.

It's hard managing money. I forgot about that when I realised I was missing ALOT of essentials.

Just keep moving forward and don't give a shit about what anybody thinks - Johnny Depp

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Author:Midorine
こんにちは、わたし は リンネです。

私が好きなもの: コスプレ, ボーイズラブ, コミック, ベーキング, ビデオゲーム, 漫画とアニメ, ソーイング, ゴルフ, ポールダンス.
私は好きではないもの: ピンク, 雨, 芝刈り機, 嫌な人.

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